Early on in our marriage I learnt that if I threw a big enough tantrum I could get Jesse to do just about anything. This is not something I am proud of and today I'm blogging about this because the purpose of this blog for me.
Is to be raw, to be humble and most importantly to be honest.
Around 9pm one night I got a craving for lamb chops we were living in Canberra at the time where woolworths and coles shut a midnight. So I asked Jesse since i didn't drive could he go down to woolies and get some chops for me.
He thought I was being silly and that I didn't need to eat chops at that time of night.
Now here comes the honest part, I wore my husband down over the next couple of hours until eventually he gave in and went out to buy chops right before midnight.
I now see this night set a tone for the next 7 years, where I would do just about anything to get my way and even tho Jesse often put up a good fight he would cave in the end just to shut me up.
This is one of my biggest failures as a wife and one of my biggest regrets.
I don't know how to say sorry for years of acting like a child refusing to grow up, take responsibility and own my own behaviour.
Simply saying sorry just doesn't seem like enough but then where do I start?
I am so sorry for all the times I have argued with you, worn you down and not been the Godly woman I was called to be and most importantly I'm sorry for not submitting myself under you.
