Purity

As a christian I have really struggled with the idea of keeping yourself pure until marriage. I've searched the scriptures, read books and sort advice from many wise men and women. An it wasn't until very recently I finally understood why we as christians hold this view point. 

Genesis 2:24 (New International Version)

 ²⁴ That is why a man leaves his father and mother and is united to his wife, and they become one flesh.

I'm sure I don't need to go into the logistics of sex, the very act is what makes you and your mate one flesh. It's the joining of one soul to an other. 

When I realized this for the first time I saw that I have been so careless with my body. Although Christ has forgiven me of all the things I did before I knew Him and the many things I have done when I have temporarily walked away from Him.

There is one thing I need to ask Him and Jess to forgive me of. 

You see when I met Jesse he was a christian and I was not. After 6 weeks of dating and Jesse having one huge argument with his father i took advantage of the situation and invited Jesse into my bedroom.

I was well aware that he wanted to wait till marriage and he wanted to live a certain way. We then over the next year flipped back and forth between waiting and being intimate. 

Then on christmas eve 2001 I said a prayer that changed my life forever. I invited Jesus to become my Lord and saviour, I repented of all my sins and asked him to wash me clean. 

From that day forward Jesse and I were not intimate until our wedding day some 18 months later. 

Although I have asked Jesus to forgive me for that time in my life, I have never asked Jesse to forgive me for my contribution to him compromising his morals. 

Again I hear you say but it's not your fault Kara he had a choice, yes he did have a choice but so did I. I could have been more respectful and for that I say sorry.